In your eyes... revisited

I dipped sunshine in your eyes,
and I saw them shine
with a wild softness that is warm
but doesn’t burn

I dipped morning dew in your eyes
and I saw them cry
with deep innocence that is unreal
but doesn’t elude

I dipped the sky in your eyes
and I saw them soar high
with intensity that is dangerous
but doesn't intimidate

I dipped the rainbow in your eyes
and I saw them paint a life
with a color that is painfully bright
but doesn’t blind

I dipped the earth in your eyes
and I saw them humble and naive
with mystery that is untraceable
but doesn’t confine

I dipped life in your eyes
and I saw in them, twilight
with a mélange that is magnificent
but doesn’t divide

iNcoNsiStEnT

(From the heart of inconsistency... that begs for stability )

I say yes today,

and I say no tomorrow

Why am I to be blamed,

when I am not sure?

I feel good about the "yes"

I feel better about the "no"

but i cant help it

I cant put up a show!

I change my mind

a little too often,

Is it too much to take?

Adios then, you are welcome

Hate me or love me

I may care or not

I dont usually feel remorse

but sometimes it hurts a lot

Be with me if you like explosives

but dont tread too far

These are not warning signals,

incase the grapes turn sour

I love you today

and I may not tomorrow

Its not a game I am playin'

and im not askin for more

I am simply inconsistent!

I give no guarantee

Its not really a free ride

but at least, you'd be with me

I can be a sadist

I can be mean

but thats how I am
take it or gladly leave..

Tomorrow cannot be told

Futile emotions caress my being
as naked choices stare at me,
And once again I see ten years
lived in accordance with fear
I cannot replace doubts
they seem to linger around
I see them win
And I see fear triumph
Merely as a spectator I watch,
the thoughts I was in control of
When a hundred mirrors shatter
the broken pieces dont matter
But if you walk on them with naked feet
there will be blood and cuts will be deep
When enslaved by skepticism
and the unborn sense of realisation
the familiar uncertainty takes its toll,
Try, if you may, but tomorrow cannot be told.

The Knew's and do's

Was it the truth wrapped in the lies
Or the lies wrapped in the truth?
Are you an actor by choice
Or a player by pursuit?

If I am not surprised, why am I in tears?
If I knew it all along, why did I believe your words?

Why did I give it a chance to last,
when I knew that you'd be a thing of the past?
Why did I give my all to you,
when I never really believed you?
Why did I let myself go,
when I always knew you'd want more?
Why did I go through the ridicule,
when I knew it would be over soon?
Why did I get flattered by the praise,
when I knew you'd vanish without a trace?
Why did I find you worthy of my love,
when I knew its the love you dont deserve?

Who's to blame?

I aksed for a feeling

He gave me love

I converted it into pain

And now, I blame him.

I asked for a kiss,

He gave me one on my lips

I converted it into a peck,

And now, I blame him.

I asked for money,

And he gave me a 100 dollars

I converted into Rs 5000

And now, I blame him

I asked for peace,

And he gave me a hug,

I converted it into violence,

And now, I blame him

But I asked for trust,

And he gave me lies,

I converted that into doubt,

And now, I blame him

But I asked for assurance,

And he didn't say a thing

I converted that into indifference

And now, I blame myself